Mixed feelings.

You know sometimes you'll have this feeling,

it's called mixed feelings.

It's like

this.

It's like your mind is in a mess.

Everything is messed up.

Then you get this massive headache,

you can't even do anything about it.

You laugh for nothing,

smile for nothing,

cry for nothing.

I think I need to really get back to my hometown asap.

I need my cousin,

I need to spill everything out to him.

I can't continue to keep everything to myself like this.

I'd just collapse.